12-28-09 lovin life

Waking up this morning brought happiness and excitement into my life. Looking back on life brings many things to a close and also opens up new ideas. I have learned to always have an open mind in life. When I committed suicide in that poker game sunday night I realized that I need to take things slower in life. I need to take my time before making decisions. I love every lesson that i learn and on my way to mastery there will be many. I want to learn how to play they deep dark blues like johnny cash and eric clapton and muddy waters and howlin wolf. Tight shit ya knowww.

12/27/2009 More lessons

I am truly happy that I am. I played some different games of poker with Zack and his dad Ron. It was a lot of fun! I ended up losing my money in the end, but I feel like i gained a lot of great exp. in strategy playing poker with my friends. I do a lot of self reflection meditation in the evenings. It is very good for me.

New years is coming up! Can't wait!!

12-25-09

Merry Christmas!! Today is my favorite day of the year besides new years and my birthday. I have decided to start my journal today. I wan't to say that life wouldn't be as great as it is without all my wonderful family and friends. I have decided to begin training in Shoalin Kungfu. This coming tuesday I will visit my first class since i was a small child. This will require lots of dicipline and love and commitment much like the kind that i used to skateboard for the last 10 years. I love stretching, working out, and gaining knowledge in the things that will make me stronger and smarter. This will be a good journey.

I Love my family. I love Juliana. I love my friends. I love who i am. That's the most important thing: I am.

Now lets all enjoy this lovely day. I'll be writing you tomorrow.

I love you!